我累了

我真的累了...
我没力气了...
感觉没人陪我...
我很想放弃一切...
什么都不要做...
去一个没人的地方...
有这个地方吗？
反正都没人理我...
反正没有我也一样...
那我就去一个没人的地方吧~

cancle~

everything had cancle...

i hav done my best to ask them to go...

i hav done my best not to "fan" them...

i hav done my best not to talk to them...so they dun hate me...

i hav done my best to talk to them...

if they still dunwan go then dunwan go lo...

if they say me...then let them say me lo...

if they think i should talk to them 1st...then let them think lo...

if they hate me...pls go ahead~

no body can stop u...

i really try my best...

wat i think~

i feel that...the event i plan...they dun wanna cum bcoz of me...i dunno y...other ppl ask them go watch movie or sing k...they sure go de...even their house or a birthday party at station one...they sure go de....now i ask...they like...sum can sum cannot...sum say go out wif other ppl liao...it make me feel thet they dun like me...

i noe i sing not that good...i noe im fan...i noe i not that talkertif...i noe im not the person hu find ppl chat...i noe im the person hu nid ppl to talk to me...so that i dun feel alone n also dun feel that ppl hate which they actually done...XD

i wonder hu will c this post??

pls tell me if u c this post...XD

2nd round~

now im in the top 60...which is the 2nd round...

i join coz i wanna c him...

but end up...

still doesn't noe he join anot...really wanna ask him...but i dun dare...

when he saw me...he say hi...but i really wanna turn bak n c he 'hi' to me or other ppl....really dunno ah...haiz....t.t...

now the only chance is in facebook...

i can ask him when he on9...

but juz now when i on9...

he off 9 already...

i hope later he on9...XD

so that i can ask him...XD

i really wanna stay abit more late that day...coz i really wanna find sum time to talk to him...but bcoz of my mom...

i hav no choice but to leave...i feel so sad...

but when i leave...i saw the reflection of him in the mirror...at 1st he didnt c me...but almost reach the door...i think he look at me...i really jeolus...everybody get to talk to him...but only me no...haiz....how to get him to talk to me...coz i noe im a person hu dunno anything....i dunno news...i dun go search...i dun go n talk to them...but izzit bcoz of i dun join them much??that y they doesnt wan to talk to me??that y they hate me???

haiz...i really dunno ah...

even this event i create...they doesnt go c it...y??

y no one wanna find me chat??

y always no ppl leave me comment??

y the ppl hu leave comment is not the person i wan??

y they dun like me??

i really can feel some ppl hate me...haiz....

am i thinking too much??~...

wat a sad day~

today...i went for dress up n make up...

they help me settle the hair...

mayb im not use to it...or mayb im scared how ppl look at me...

but i must try to open my heart....must try not to be scared...

but my tears wont listen...

it juz came down like tat...

nobody ever want ppl to look their crying face...

so i went to toilet...n cool down myself...

after i cool down myself...

teacher came infront of me...n scold me once again....

then my tears fall off again...n again...till im out off breath...

n yet teacher dun care....

in the same time...i knew sumting...i found out sumting...

y n how they hate me...

so now i really dun feel get together wif them anymore....

really wanna noe...

im thinking too much...or is just real....

tired....

im tired of eating...

im tired of being fat....

im tired of being alone....

im tired of being poor...

im tired of doing homework....

im tired of being nice...

im tired of being so lonely...

im tired of being single...

im tired of loving him....

im tired of this...

im tired of that...

im tired of everything....

but i hav no choice....

bcoz this is my life....

no matter how i change...

it still

not eating make me die...

too hard to be thin....

no fren wan to be wif me...

not working...

still student...

not that evil...

cannot be more friendly-er

no ppl wan me...

cant stop loving...

cant change this...

cant change that...

cant change everything...

so juz wanna be me...

go shopping...

n relax myself...

no matter how ppl look at me....

NID PPL TO VOTE!!!!

the class that i love to attend....there is a video now...

nid ppl to vote for me n my group!!!XD

for those hu hav facebook....pls help me vote my groups...XD

let me teach u how....

1st click this link...

http://www.facebook.com/haloforest?ref=ts

after u click this link...click LIKE on the page...

dun juz LIKE the page...

LIKE the video is only call voting...hahaha...to vote my group is this link...

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1295116272716

this is the link that vote my group....is a video...so under the video...click LIKE...

it is so simply....

simply as ABC

hahaha....

so pls help me vote my group...

rmb ask yr fren to help me vote...do the same thing like wat u did....pls help...

yr 1 vote is a big help to us...

yr vote is important....

XD

so wait wat...click the link now...n do wat i say juz now....hahha

vote vote vote....start voting...XD

pictures!!

how do i get everyone to take photo wif me???

y do 1 photo album also that hard leh??

haiz...

tomoro...dun care le....take the camera out n take only...then genting that time...take more photo again...hahahahahaha...

gonna cry

my goodness....how can i lose to her....is so not right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i feel like killing her ah!!!!!!!!!!!

i cant blif it lo...

dunwan say la...feel like killing her....

tomoro...i love tomoro....go sum where i love...n sum where i can find fren...XD

ntg to say

dunno wat to say...

listen song only...

wan chat wif me...

any time

XD

i hate her

mygoodness!!!!!!

i so dam hate her de lo.....everything also wanna fight wif me....

everything also wanna show off....

is my part wan mah...i actually can show off to the teacher...end up she take it....wat the f*@# of her la

there is 3 part

she surpost to do the 1st part...then she keep say cannot...ok lo fine lo....mah let her do the same part as me...but she do almost last part wan la...then she say the word dunno how to read la...summore wat she dunno how to sing la...then keep giving excuse la.... F@#* kao her wan lo....

then now they say 1 of my part let her do wor....wat the....now i cannot show of liao lo......dam F*@# her wan la.....no use wan lo....i really wanna ask them kick her out.....dam wat wan lo......not i wanna angry la....but too comanding lo.....argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one of them still say if u still excuse then no nid do liao....juz stand 1 side only....i was so happy when i heard that...but of coz cannot wan mah...fine la....dun care la....later hav to show liao....do the best in my part then can liao...really hope teacher noe it...hahaha....really wanna kill her la.....

wat a person......

really...if she do it again...i really going to tell her 'dun make me scold u untill u hav nothing to say'....

n if she still laugh....i still shout at her straight away!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im in...

omgoodness!!!

the competition....im in....so fish leh...haiz....so scared la....haiz....but now in liao...so fan findding song...haiz...dam lazy wan lo...after this friday the final round then 4ever i no nid come skul liao...coz very fish ah......hahahahaha

i really cant blif it....i really cant...

really dunno how to face them....really dunno

n the song also...i also dunno choose wat....haiz.....

how o??gonna die soon.....sooon gonna die...............

wat to write??!!

4 so long i haven update...hahaha...

let me c wat can i say??

oh ya....i got a in account and math...hahahh....so long didnt get A liao...hehe...XD

i rmb the last time i get A is when im form 1...haha...that is my only A in secondary school....hehe...n now i get bak an A..im so happy la....hahaha....

n that day friday, is 20th ogos...i went to time square...hahaha....bought a lot of thing....my 1st time...when there about 2 an a half hour plus...i already use up 200 plus riggit...hahaha...i bought n1 file, 1 bag, 1 pair boots,1 baby cloth,then 7 or 8 cloths 4 me...wow....i cant blif it la...haha....i bought dam many thing...hahaha...dam happy....

i very lazy upload those picture...so next time when i'm not lazy la...XD

that all i guess...haha...next time only update la...hehe,XD

eXAm

next saturdy n sunday exam again...haizz...hope i can pass...
yesterday we pratice together...haha...n teacher say our group is the best among the others...we like so happy...hahaha...then i guitar...last time i keep 4gething the cord...but now i rmb...YEAH ME!!!hahah...XD
now i keep feeling that my weekend is gone...totally no time to rest...but going to the class...is ok also...coz i cant learn alot of thing...after i went in to this cos...i feel that i learn more n more...so im very happy....oh ya...i met more n more fren yesterday...so happy...haha...but now...i hav to do it myself..not waiting ppl to talk to u...XD
i dun think there is anymore to tell but i can update the next time when i hav something to write...XD

PS:dunno still in love with him anot??hiaz...

yEah

27/7/2010

finally...
i feel that im not in love...i also dunno y i say that...juz feel so...XD
now im not in love...n hopefully next time i will not think too much lo...hehe
lets c wat to say...
ermm...

oh ya...on the saturdy 24/7/2010...
me n my fren when to the recording room...guess wat??i saw ling yu zhong...
hahahhaa...i so surprice leh...haha....he is my life 1st saw de singer leh...i mean artis....hehe
i tough i saw wrong person...but my fren say no la...is real wor...haha...
CAN U ACTUALLY BLIF IT??
HAHA...

mY FElinGS

dunno y...after 4 days worked together...n yesterday was the exam day...after the exam...i miss the feeling when we gather together n chat about our home work...especially a guy in our group...the whole night...i keep thinking about him...dunno y...really dunno y...

yesterday after exam...i called my dad fetch me bak home...in the car...i keep thinking our team work...our gathering...then i realise that i miss it so much...that my tears fall out so suddenly...then the whole night keep thinking about him...i told myself....i shouldn't think of it...but it juz keep thinking about it...haiz...finally i get to sleep...
till this morning is time to go skul...
when i got up the car...i think about it again...then my tears fall out again....when i reach the skul...is still ok...but when no body care about me n i keep thinking about him...my tears keep coming out none stop...i wanna stop it...n finally when i stop...i think about it again...n my tears fall out again...

since the teacher is not teaching...so i called my grandma to fetch me home....i lie to her that i got stomach pain....but is actually heart pain...
y i keep thinking about him...i noe is impossible....but y??
i juz wanna stop thinking...so now...i tell myself...dun talk to him...anymore....our distant will stop untill here...no more...no more any further....

oNE utAMa

yesterday..15 of july...
when to 1 u wif my fren to do our exam thing...went there at 6 someting n go bak home by 10 sumting...reach home already 11 sumting la...take bath some more o...then untill 11 30 liao....next day wake up at 6 50....so nlate 4 skul....bcoz sleep so late...haiz...
this morning lo....wake up at 6 50...haha...but today finish skul at 12 30...then waited for my mom untill about 1 tthen she came n fetch me n my brother bak home....
i told myself that i shouldnt hav gone to skul today....bcoz 1stly...pj time got ppl angry...moral time teacher wait 4 me n my fren go in liao only start teach...thyen bm time....teacher gone stupid n scolded me till i so hate her....n lastly bi....the teacher dun even noe how to teach...haiz....wat a bad day...
then juz now 1 sumting got go 1 u again...to practice...i reach there around 2 sumting...till now 10 sumting only finish....now juz came bak from 1 u....haiz....so dam tired...
i so regret to go there...i dunno y...i keep feeling that they dun lik me...i did talk but when it around 5 sumting ...i started stop talking...no body noe also....n they dun even care...mayb bcoz this morning already no mood then i think too much or wat la...but i noe today i totaly no mood at all...
and then got 1 more guy o...i so dam hate him....he not very lz also but go take picture...then the practice not do better then me n keep saying i do wrong....say bring us to a room practice...end up bring me walking the whole mall...when my leg is hurt....so wanna kill him MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
argh!!!!

really wanna hav a nice sleep tonite n hav fun tomoro...haha...
so that i wont like today like this no mood de....

so tomoro only update la...coz nid to find sum pic to update my blog...hahaha....

NITE NITE EVERYONE!!!

change my blog

this morning i didnt go skul...
too boring dunno wat to do...
so mah do my blog lo...
n now...
my new blog...
i wanna put song...but still haven find it how...but i sure find it wan...
haha...

tomoro exam...n then sunday exam also...haiz...
soo many exam...but the good thing is...both exam also is music wan...
way better then skul exam alot...haha...

my facebook getting more more fren...haha...but all also not lz wan...haiz...
n few days ago...my fren told me sumting...
n now i really hate the girl...she like very clever like this..n actually not...
say wat I WILL NOT FIND DAO LZ
i like wanna kill her MAN!!
she also cannot find la...even doe she find it all also in fb wan la...not real life also...
hate her la...

anyway i dunwanna talk about her liao...haha...
today i quite happy...coz 1stly no nid go skul
2ndly hav my new blog...
3rdly tomoro no nid go skul AGAIN!! hahahaha
so song!!!haha

ntg write le...
write tomoro la...
bYe bYe!!!

be myself~

now adays alot of thing to do...
nid to learn this nid to learn that la...n if u dun learn...4ever u dun learn something...

i really wanna be 17 or 18 now...so that i can drive n do wateva i wanna do...
i really wanna be myself...like...whenever i wanna do ..i juz go 4 it...
i dunwanna ask my mother to fetch me up n down...i dunwanna ask my parent if i can go out
i dunwanna stay at home n do ntg...i dunwanna be boring...
i wanna go n do work...i wanna hav fun wif my life...
i wanna be rich so that i can go shopping...
i wanna do everthing...i wanna go collage rite now...
i wanna be alone...i wanna stay at home n play computer...
i wanna play piano so that no wan talk to me...then i can be peaceful...
i wanna go shopping myself...then i'll be happy...

i wan my mom to buy me a laptop...but she told my this 3 month no money to buy...so i hav to wait...i feel so hurt about it...
i wanna go find house to stay by my own self...but my mom say no money...
i wan a car so that when i can drive..i can juz start the car n go anywhere i wan...but she say no money...
i wanna be more hard working to ask my mom to buy me sumting or bring me anywhere i wan...but im tooooo lazy...
but i dun care...
i hav to be hardworking now...so that i can ask her bring me go australia to find my fren n go shopping...
n also taiwan...
n also spain...there is the place i wanna go 4 my collage...coz mostly fashion designer came out from there....

this is my 2nd job if my 1st wan cant exist

sorry to my fren~

im so sorry 4 u la...if this year im 17 or 18 then no problem teman u...but now i still nid my mom to fetch me...so no choice ...hav to follow her order...
haiz....
but when the time that i can drive...i sure teman u when ever u wan me to go or wan follow me...haha....

tomoro is skul taking report day...is also canteen day...alot of ppl ask me buy cupon...but i dunwan coz very expensive...haha...
actually going to roller de lo...but bcoz my mom...bcoz i cant drive...so i cant go...haiz...i pls my mom buy me a laptop...so no nid fight wif my borther n sister...haha...n also...it can do all my music thing...hehe..
ohya almost 4got...august 31th...im going genting 4 concert...so cool man...haha....oh...nid ppl to vote in fb...haha...still dunno the link yet...but when i noe then i write it here...haha...

sum ppl i get to 4get liao...but still got sum ppl i cant 4get....y cant i 4get the ppl i cant 4get leh??y must 4get the ppl i already 4get??
aiya...i also dunno wat im saying...but anyway...i hope i can 4get the ppl i wan to n the ppl that i cant 4get...haiz....

today went midvalley...wanna buy laptop...camera...n more n more...but no money to buy...wait 4 my mom buy 4 me la...haha....wanna go shopping...i tell my mom...buy a small kondo near the LRT so that i can walk to skul n 2ndly holiday that time...i can walk to LRT to go do work...n also my fren can cum my house n stay...coz only me alone stay in that house...hahahahaha....wat a good idea...should ask her do like this...for 2 years only...hehehe

ok la...
tomoro only update again wif my picture la...coz i got take alot of picture today n mayb tomoro...hehe...wait 4 my update wor...ahaha

p.s:hope not to think too much lo...haiz...

y??

y ppl noe me??
y ppl noe my blog??
y ppl dun talk to me??
y must me talk to ppl 1st??
y ppl say bad thing bhind my bak??
y can't they juz say infront of me??
y can't they say sumting good to me??
y must they bully me??
y cant i be myself??
y must i bcom sum1 they like??
y must i listen to them??
y they say me when i didnt even say anything??
y they say me when i did say something??
y guys like girls hu r pretty??
y girls hate guy when they r ugly??
y guys say girls is annoying??
y girl say guys r irretating??
y guys like girls when we dont like those girls??
y ppl dont like to be childish??
y must ppl think negative??
y sum ppl dont even think of negative??
y cant me do wat i wanna do??
y must i think for others??
y this world got love??
y must girl like boy n boy like girl??
y cant girl like girl n boy like boy??
y must girl hav baby??
y cant guy hav baby??
y teacher dont allow us sit together??
y teacher dont allow us to play toghter??
y ppl say girls dance ballet only??
y cant guys dance ballet??
y guys can dance breake dance??
y girls cant dance breake dance??
y we hav fats??
y we hav hair??
y ppl are lazy??
y ppl r so helpful??
y ppl love exercising??
y sum ppl hate music??
y sum ppl love to study??
y ppl love to play??
y sum ppl r shy??
y sum ppl r so brave??
y sum ppl is good in sumting??
y sum ppl is bad in everthing??
y im worse in so many thing??
y is my best thing is everything also noe??
y do me nid oxygen??
y ppl care wat ppl say about it??
y everthing is so difficult??
y must we learn??
y ppl say fat ppl cant sing??
y sum ppl r so rude??
y sum ppl dun even talk??
y baby will born after 10 month??
y ppl love shopping??
y ppl love staying at home??
y pp juz love to...
y ppl likes to...
y sum ppl...
y ppl...
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ps: STOP SAYING!!! BHIND MY BACK!!!

never want u anymore

i hav decided to giv up on u...coz i dunwan to get hurt anymore...today i read sum1's paper...he wrote it in the exam time...the sentences i like it very much...i dun rmb very much..but the meaning is about the same...
I WILL TELL U I LOVE U UNTILL THE VERY LAST MOMMENT
sumting like this meaning la...i dunno y...this really mean to me...
i wan to find sumbody that i can talk to...but mostly ppl find other ppl more then finding me...well i dun care...coz i noe no wan will find me...but now...i juz wanna enjoy my friendship...dunwan in a relationship...coz i noe no wan will like me this kind of ppl...
well
byebye to him...i will make he regret...
n everyone that doesnt like me...hehe

mother's day!!!

happy mother's day to every mother...
i so sad that i didnt brought anything 4 her...coz i never get a chance to go out n buy...but never mind...i noe wat she wan...hopefully i can bought the thing in 2 year time...or better in 1 year...hahaha
haiz....now my stomach dm pain de....i wan go shit...but i cant...dunno y...mayb i tomoro no go skul...mayb only la...c later my mom can help me anot lo...mayb go c doctor....haiz....
ntg to say also la...coz today no go out...hehe...thats all la...nite nite n sweet dream to everyone esspcially mummy...hehe

ps: starting to wait their answer...hehe

round 2

today i went for the round 2...haiz...the part is ok...but other when they ask me do then not so good le....coz very scared ah me...haha....i cry bcoz i never do well in the OTHER thing there...haha...dunno they will choose me anot leh....pls choose me la...i really wanna learn thing from there...pls dun tell me they dun choose me bcuz of the OTHER thing i never did well wor...i really wan it ah...
i really did my best liao...but still think tooooo much...thinking...they will choose me anot??or they wont choose me??
they wont choose me bcuz of my OTHER thing?? or wat??haiz...i dunno how to say la...but juz really scared...i cry after finish the round 2...i juz dunno y....mayb i think i not good enof lo...mayb i am good enof but juz not confident in it...haiz...i also dunno how lo...i only can no the answer on monday to wednesday...they say if they call is means im in the game...but if they never call me...means im not in the game...i really scared they never call me...coz if they never call me means im not in the game liao...haiz...i really wanna go...but really scared also...haiz....
hu can giv me energy leh...hu can giv me their shoulder n lent me to cry 4 awhile...hu can be there 4 me??hu can i tell to??hu can i find??hu ??hu??
haiz...i think no one...not to say no one la...but this person i wan them to be....is only those ppl noe me well de...then they will noe hu i mean...hahahaha

now i only can wait till monday...or tuesday....or wednesday...haha...then i can noe the answer already...i really hope they call me...i really hope so....i pray 4 this few day...pray very very hard...very very hard....hehe

this saturday round 2

i finally noe when is the round 2...hahaha
is on this saturday
when i 1st got the phone...it scared me...haha...i dun think no wan noe about it...only 2 fren noe...hehehehe...
i dunno which wan to choose...is tooo many...my had is going to burst ah...hahaha....
i show it to my mother c wat she think about it...hehe....
wah....so happy lo...hehehe...erm...im gonna do my best in it...i dunno i will met some one i noe anot...but hopefully no pls.... coz i dunwan anyone noe about it...hehe...
n yesterday...i ask my cousin ask sumting from my fren...is a long long story...only frew ppl noe...hehehe....they say he very angry wor...now i also dunno how to say sorry to them....juz c wat is the situation tomoro la...if not i very yeng shout their name in the class n juz say sorry...if they ask y...i juz say think yr self...hahaha....wat a good idea...hehehe....
ok la...i dunwan say so much leh...now wan go find which wan to choose...
hehe...nite nite....

omgoodness

my pen drive got problem again
haiz...
next time dun buy kingston pls...haiz...
anyway
i long time no talk to 1 person liao...dunno how the person think of me liao...the person no use wan lo...as a fren b4...but now...dunno me at all....in chiness can call as...最熟悉的陌生人...but useless wan la the person...i wish when the person is single again then i can talk bak to the person...so that the person's another half wont simple think other think...hahaha

in skul i can actually feel that alot of ppl not like me...mayb i think alot or mayb is real i dunno la...but if i change to another skul...then...hahaha....i'll be another person...n not like now...so quite....hahaha....so time faster go pls...so that i can go to college n study haha...that time can wear nice cloth n no nid wear SKUL UNIFORM...haha....

oh ya...i hav pass through round 1 ...still waiting round 2 come...hahaha...so happy de...but now...must must practise more n more...so that i can pass round 2 also...hahaha....wish me luck everyone...hehehe...
i were thinking if i pass round 2...then i'll be famous n then earn alot alot of money...but dunno ppl will like me anot lo...hahahaha.....aiya...dun care 1st la...now juz nid to practise more n more...to get better n better...haha...then will go in round 2....YEAH!!!!!!
hahahaha
i noe god will giv me energy wan...haha...but nid to pray more...!!!

today 29th of april

today 29th of april
is my fren b'day...i dun hav her no. so i hav commented in her fb...hehe

today i hav quite fun de...hehe
let c...
only 3 period study...others teacher no cum..so do our own thing only...hehe
then the science period that time...we all go scince lab lo...then o...i were too hot that i wan the fan...then teacher ask us copy note..after finish copy the note...sum guy call me...n bcuz i cant heard wat they say...so o...i go to their table there...then i hear they say their thing...even those girls cannot hear wan...but very funny...then o...they ask me question i laugh only...haha...n then i continue hear wat they say...untill finish science we went bak to class...
on the way...i keep laughing is not bcuz wat they say...is bcuz they never hate me...this is wat i found out today...i were so happy that now my stomach very very pain...not bcuz of laughing 4 sure...hehe

wat happen to me??

this few days i really dunno wat hapen to me..??
i never wan to talk to my fren asspecially when she talk to me...no matter wat she say i juz will get angry...feel like wat she say is noncenses...like when im sad droping my tears down...i noe she doen't noe but atleast dun joke those thing say wat it past so 4 get about it...im like WAT THE...i was so angry that i wanted to scold her in her face...now i really dunwan to talk to her anymore...i noe she is the only fren hu noe contenes among all the fren...but i really cant tahan her liao...mayb giv me sumtime to talk to my youth leader...mayb she noe wat happen...but 4 now...i really dunwan to talk to u...hope u use yr brain n think y im angry ba...
2ndly...i was so angry at her that i wanna change class...but the class that i wanna change to..got few teacher i hate...example like fizik teacher,phantom teacher(her nick name we call in skul),n 1 more dunno wat name but got big ass de...teach bm o...walao leh...no nid to learn lo...atleast at this class still got a better teacher to teach us....so how ah??should i change anot??
n another thing is...
the cameron tirp...i wan to go but too expensive ah...i noe is 3 day 2 night but this 3 day also nid 200 meh??so so dam expensive leh...i noe my mom let me go...but i rather use the money save it 4 shopping or other thing...haiz...
but my fren ask me go there teman her...haiz...i also dunno how ah....

now i go 2 thing dunno how....
1st is wan change class anot??!!
2nd thing is wan go cameron anot??!!

oh ya still got wan more
this saturday got 2 party...but theperson hu organise the party never ask me in person or in my face...both also ask another person to tell me...i really dunno they asking me go or my fren say only...
HAIZZZ.........

is this god wanna giv me??

i yesterday dam angry de...bcuz my pic all lost,all gone...neh...the stupid pendrive lo...haiz....
i never wan to buy that brand anymore...
all my own photo,me n my fren de photo,our gathering photo de,trip de photo....all lost...i was so angry wif it....that i drop my tears down from my face....i really dunno where to find bak my all those photo lo...haiz...so sad about it....never wan to use that brand again...
but today...everthing go so happy 4 me...i love today...s^...i love today...haha
let c...
since yesterday was my hurt day..but that hurt can change to my love day...haha
this morning i went sungai wang....4 sumting la...let u all guess wat ba...haha
so the registeration is on 2 sumting...so they 1st say wan picture...but i 4got bring...then they say wan photoscap ic...n also never bring...so how leh...they say no ic can not go 4 it wor...ok lo...i say...so 1st of may n 2nd of may only go 4 it...but then after 15 ppl...no wan register...so th lady let me go 4 it lo...haha...then in th end...it choosen me...haha
I DID IT PPL....i did it...haha....i hav past round 1...now nid go 4 the 2nd round...still dunno nid to wait 4 how long 4 the round 2...but at least i got time to practice more n more...then show my best to them on the day 4 round 2...haha....
then we go midvally go fetch my sis they all...then suddently found out that my shoes spoil already...so go buy shoes lo...haha
buy 2 shoes time...haha....2 shoes cos about 115++de...walao leh..use so much money...next time how to go shopping o...but never mind...if i hav been choosen after round 2...then mayb i can b famous...after i famous...then i will earn my own money...after i hav my own money....mummy...pls dun stop me from shopping!!!!hahahahahhahahahahaha.....

so wish me luck in round 2....tell u all when is the round 2 after they tell me...hehe

u r wrong!!!

sum ppl say on diet
sum ppl say go exercise
sum ppl say no nid eat

but actually is all worng...

u surppost to eat healthy food n exercise all the time...if u r free everyday...

u also can try to eat fruit for 4 days
example...

tuesday~eat papaya n pineapple the whole day...
wednesday~only watermelon the whole day...
thursday~eat the 'sun sweet' purm 4 that day
friday~the last day eat grape only...

after the fruit day...is everything day...haha...it means eat sum egg,meat,toufu,vegetable n others...but there is only 2 thing that u cannot eat...junk food n oily food...is bad 4 u...

or u can follow this....

sunday~eat wat u like but rmb is a equal meal...n also not the junk food....
monday~eat big meal if u wan in the morning...n half a meal in the afternoon then fruit at night...
tuesday~eat wateva fruit only.../exercise
wednesday~eat big meal if u wan in the morning...n half a meal in the afternoon then fruit at night...
thursday~if u can try to eat vegetable only.../exercise
friday~eat big meal if u wan in the morning...n half a meal in the afternoon then fruit at night...
saturday~eat sum thing u like...but not alot...juz to cheer u up that u did it...

exercise can do anytime...but food no way...

coz if u juz thinking that u wanna keep fit by not eating thing...it doesnt work 4 u...but will go more fatter....haha...i noe u r asking y...so now i tell u....
u will go fatter bcuz...when yr stomach is hungry u sure find sumting to eat...so if this meal u never eat...the next meal u will eat more then u never eat b4...y?? bcuz u r too hungry that u cant stand it anymore....2ndly...if u never eat...n yr stomach is hungry...wat stomach eat...ntg...bcuz no food...but they can eat wind...when u r talking...the wind will go in to yr stomach...so u also will go fatter...

dun try to be smart that u wanna keep fit without anything...cuz u r wrong!!!!

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now is my story~

today i got pj...i not quite happy wif the pj class today...really not happy...
sorry to all those fren that i angry at them today...i never mean it...but i really out of control today...
my fren keep asking me y...but i dunwan to tell yet...now i tell u...hope those hu noe wat im saying...4giv me...

pj class was start at 8.50am
me n my fren when down to find others fren hu hav pj also....then we go down to the place where teacher always at there...which is juz infront the canteen...at 1st...teacher make us run 2 round or 3 round in front of the canteen...then teacher let us play wateva we like...boys n girl is seperated...the guys's teacher make them play hocky...i wanted to wait 4 them...but i also wan to play volly ball 1st....i really hate playing wif those girl...coz they were scared n doesnt noe how to catch...so bcuz i was waiting 4 those guys...so i play wif those girls 1st...
the fat pig in my class...like she think she is the best player in it only...very not song her.....she keep standing middle of the circle...when the ball is hitting to me...she go catch it...alot of time liao lo....thats y i hate playing wif girls!!!
n there is 1 time is my ball my turn to hit...she also cum hit....when the ball were hit up again...i scold her f... idiot...i really not happy liao...so i go take my towel n then go toilet...that time no wan noe im already angry...i was sad...n angry...that the fat pig...argh~~~
untill then the teacher call us in the last 5 min...she ask us to do sumting like the star jump...but i wasnt in the mood to do...so i run away...n good thing is teacher never saw me....
after that...teacher ask us go change cloth...my cloth were in the canteen table...n i was oppersite the canteen....i wanted to go n take...but my shoes lace cam off...when i was doing my shoes lace...my fren cum over n ask me wat happen...but never take my cloth to this side...that time i more angry...thinking y is she so dum.....argh....lucky i hav another fren hu really care about me...although we not that close...but at least she is better then her....haiz...
i wanted to cry that time...but i cant cry out...
when i was walking passing trough fren classes...she called me...i was so angry that i shout at her...i feel so sorry that i hav no face facing them...so i straight walk to the toilet n change my cloth...that time i wanna be alone...but the fren keep following me...i wanted to shout at her...but then i never...coz i noe it wasnt she the one make me angry...is the fat pig....
that time i wanna cool down myself thats y i never talk to anyone...untill the canteen...haha...guess wat happen...there is sum girls fight...between the fat pig n another malay girl...then she was sent in to the office...but wat happen to her i dunno...but at least she was sent to the office...mayb is god helping...thx god...noe u will always there 4 me...thx u....

then i talk bak to my fren...n i wanted to say sorry...but i cant say it out....i try to say when i c them again...which is monday...but those hu veiw my blog...i will tell them sorry in my blog here...n also in facebook...
SORRY MY FRENZ~

still no mood~

today i really no mood
1st thing is my book not yet found...i think is ppl stole it already...dunno la...guess only...
2ndly i never choi my fren today...dunno y...she noe i no mood...but dunno how to make me happy...is ok also...where got ppl wanna choi me la...if i like that...haiz...
sumtime i really wanna be alone...=)
my mom still not yet cum bak...really scared she this sunday cannot cum bak...this is sunday is very important to me....if i never go..is ok de...but next saturday must must go lo...if not i will sure regret 4ever....

very funny lo...
when u wanna be alone those ppl sure cum disturb u...when u hate to be alone...no wan wants u...haiz...this happen to me all the time...haha
aiya...wat i thinking of la...like me this kind of ppl where will wanna cum talk to me la...or disturb me lo...

i really wanna lose weight...but dunno y...last time i eat those food can help me lose...but now...cannot at all...y ah??
no wan noe lo...

oh ya
the 4th thing i no mood about is my PENDRIVE

no mood!!!

today i dunno y i really no mood...haiz...
feel like juz wanna be alone the whole day...
1stly i dunwanna talk to my fren...
then my mom told me she cannot cum bak...
n also my book has lost...i really dunno where i put...i dunno izzit ppl steal it anot...but i rmb i hav it last week...dunno y i cant find it...i really cant rmb where i put it...i really hope is not lost...
today de piano class also make alot of mistake...bcuz no mood...haiz...teacher keep scolding me...say me today very blur wor....haiz...i also im i anot...i juz noe i wanna be alone now!!!!!!!!

i really wanna be alone 4 few days...go to the world which only me alone 4 awhile...then when i feel lonely again only cum out of the world...dunno is there a world call MY OWN WORLD...i think there is...is juz that u nid to find....i really dun feel like going to skul tomoro...but i nid to go to take my pendrive....but my book is lost...but pendrive is more important...haiz...dunno wat to choose lo...wish there were no skul~

thinking too much

i can few my life had change...
mayb the god heard wat i say gua...anyway thx god...noe u always there 4 me...hehe

that guy really very werid...suddenly very good to me...suddenly say wanna bao bao me...suddenly never talk to me...dam dam werid la...4 so long never c him liao...haha
he also very werid...i really tough he hate me the last time we were in the same class...he still say i very noissy wor...but that day...very very different de...he dunno y keep wanna take my no. n also his leg keep sit very very near to me...
juz now at canteen he sit juz oppersite me...i perpestly talk to my fren about another guy that i wrote his hand n i point at him...he tough i point at him...so he keep looking at me...but actually im not looking at him....so funny wan is i perpestly wan...haha....
n bcoz my tie is wif my fren...so i go her class there take bak lo...he were in his class already...then he n his gang of fren...look at me...in the front door there...coz i was standing at the front door there....haha

i told my fren...wat he did to me...izzit really mean those thing...if it is...should i accept??
but now when i ask him thing...he never even reply anything to me...but leave comment in facebook...wat is this mean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARGH~~~
never mind...i dunwanna think too much...i....ntg to say le...but juz wait...haha

4 so long

4 so long my heart never jump this fast...dunno y...mayb he is really meant to me...juz feel like loosing him...thats y i think....but anyway....heart....stop jumping so fast....i cant stand it anymore!!!!!!
arghhhh....

my mom went out station 4 so long that she is going to cum bak tomoro...but bcoz sky got problem...the airport is close...t.t...she cannot cum bak ah....i wanna cry ah...haiz....

today nothing to do...so camwor...took alot alot of picture...but got sumting use de only take de...hehehe....tomoro got 1 standed 6 gathering...tomoro sure go take picture wif them de...hahan then put it in fb...haha...

nothing to say about le...thats all la...
nite nite everyone...n sweet dream...

hand hurt...

today i started to copy the sinopsis that teacher ask us do...omgoodness la...1 day i already write 16 bab...all also very long...so pain la my hand now...still got another 8 more bab to write...rather die 1st lo...haiz...

today sum1 told me that there is a trip to sunway lagoon water park dry park... n 1 more i 4got where is that place ...haha...but this 3 place only cos 35 ringgit...so cheap la...haha....so cheap wor...of coz go wan la...if no go...then the person is stupid wan lo...hahaha....

this saturday got gathering...also dunno still on anot wan lo...never c the person hu invite us wan on9 also...then also dunno wat happen lo now...haiz...go de hua very sien...no go de hua giv ppl kill...haiz...how leh...??aiya...dun care la...if got go lo...if no then wateva lo...

now juz nid to focus on my sinopsis lo...if not thursday how to pass up leh??haiz...

continue wif the girl's LOVE STORY

they both had not talk 4 so long...that the guy is starting to avoiding the girl...dunno y...she wanted to ask him 4 the reason...but the guy keep avoiding him...so she cant ask him...she was thinking 4 an idea that how can she talk back to him...she still thinking...finally...she think of an idea...few weeks later...she perpestly stand outside his class room n talk to another fren of hers...then she saw the guy cumming up...but when the guy saw her standing there....he did not go in the class but turn around n run away from the girl...the girl turn n look at him the 2nd time...he was gone...dunno where he is...the girl were very very sad n walk bak to her class....she cant listen anything of wat the teacher is saying...she juz thinking of the guy...thinking wat they had been done of the happy memori...n also the sad memori...she rmb she had a book of his...she still kept it...n never use b4...she wanted to use it 4 her diary...but she wouldn't want to take out n use...so she kept it...but another book like the one he gave her...she got angry wif it...coz when she look at the book...she kept thinking of the guy hu did sumting to hurt her...she felt very very sad...

continue next time...
P.S.~girls never let a guy avoid u...but u can avoid them anytime or when u like...

my world my mind my hope

now adays...i can feel that u r running away from me...u think im a monster that will eat u izzit??sorry lo...i dun eat ppl wan lo...i also dunno y u r running away from me...haiz...
wanted to giv up on u but sorry...i cant do it...juz wanna noe do u really like her...coz i really regret...dunno y u like her...or u pittying her...wish u r still singel...wish we were in the same class...wish we were best fren...wish u never leave me...wish u still making me smile...wish u make me angry then make me laugh again...wish u won't like her...wish u were mine...but this is all juz WISHES...never will cum ture...haiz...

now im juz listening that song...the song of lyric,the meaning is really meant to me...but our song...is never appear in the world...

dunwanna go skul~

i really dun wanna go skul tomoro...but i dunno how to tell my mom about it...i scared she say me again....let c wat can i tell her the reson that i dunwan go skul leh??haiz...i'll think later...haha

juz now my music class de teacher change to another teacher le...1stly i scared...very very scared lo..haha...but then ok le...then when he teach me...my tears almost fall off from my eye...suddently only...the tears almost fall off about 2 to 3 time...i dunno y...mayb is bcoz the new teacher n the old teacher's teknik of teaching...is diffrent...i dun really use to it wif this teacher...but i'll try my best to giv him another chance...haha...
thats y i dun like the teacher hu teach me half then change another teacher...u noe la...got the feel there 4 about half year already then now they tell me change teacher...so sad la...haiz....hope can still keep in touch wif the teacher...

my party

the momment i went up the stage...i 4got everything
so sorry that i didnt did well today...
next week mayb...next week i'll try again...i hope i got chance...haha...hope u all giv me that chance pls...

then i hav a party at home...i open this party bcoz of him...n he did came...haha...but i also feel sorry bcoz that i never talk to him more then talking to other...so sorry...
this will be our last nite...to talk together...i dunno u will cum find me again anot...but i hope that u will talk to me as a fren again lo...

dunno wat to say le...

P.S.~wish u were mine...n make me happy all the time...

bcoz of that guy

omgoodness me...y must bcoz of that guy n change the time leh??
if he cannot cum mah cannot cum lo....
now i also dunno how to make u to cum...haiz...
i asked u...u say ok on that day i actually plan...but...now u tell me u dunno cant anot...on the day next day....
haiz....
now i juz nid to pray god to make a plan 4 me to think how u going to cum....wait 4 my answer pls~~

p.s.~i hav this xxx...is all bcoz of u~

a girl's LOVE STORY

i juz went to the bitch profile...n i found sumting...that he juz open a blog...if i hav not when in to the bitch's profile i wouldn't hav noe that he hav a blog...i saw his profile there writing a story...so now my turn to tell a story...which i juz read....

long time ago...it was in the middle of the year...a girl noe a guy at then...they both dunno each other at 1st...the 1st expression that the girl look at the guy...she tought that he was a very quiet person...but after she knew him...his characters hav change....he bcame a very fun person to her...she think that he can be his best fren...so she try very hard to make the guy want to be her fren...instead of being fren...other ppl keep saying the girl like the guy who's actually not....but she didnt care at all...so she continue talking to him...in class they both keep laughing n joking none stop...the girl feel very happy...bcoz he was the 1st guy that play wif her n makes her happy...but once....the girl did ntg but juz talk to the guy who's actually doing ntg...n she had scolded by the guy...he scolded her:"u r so annoying!!!" at that momment...the girl's heart got broken...she never knew that the guy will tell her that...after recess...the girl never want to talk to him...bcoz of wat he had said...but the guy was wondering y isn't she talking...also,he never think that it was his own fault...he himself makes her unhappy...so he think of sumting...n he tought of an idea...he tickle at her waist...she got shocked n turn around look at him...he look at her n gav her a sweet smile...so she gav a smile bak to him...n she's happy after all...no longer it was thier big exam...they both hav been choosen to diffrent classes...they were both next door classes...after 1 week...the exam is over...n the guy never appear in skul anymore...
finally...exam is over...so as those boring holidays...the girl n the guy when bak to skul...bcuz of those teacher haven seprate all the student to diffrent classes...so they hav to went bak to thier own class room...n wait 4 those teacher's announcement....bcoz the girl n the guy had a long time never talk to each other...so they both got shy n dunno wat to talk about...n they never talk at all...1 week later...teachers had settle everything...the teacher had choosen the girl staying in the class...but the guy was not...he had been choosen to another class which is juz next to the girl's class...the girl thought that he was her best fren...but...she was wrong...bcoz he never find her b4...accpet 4 the 1st 2 time...the 1st time is bcoz that the girl ask him out....he couldn't go n dunno wat to contact her...so he added her as fren in msn...n through there...he told her that he cant go...N 4 the 2nd time...it was a massage...bcuz 1 day he had no mood...he never laugh at all...the girl n her fren's wondering y...but when she got home...she saw her phone had a massage...she open it out...it was from the guy...n she read it...he said:"hey! sry..2day so cold to u..hmm 2day no mood at all......"after she finish read it...she got very happy...bcuz the massage,the guy only send to her.........SO bcoz he wasnt in the same class,n bcoz that he never found her to chat anymore...so she was very sad...that momment she feel was that sumting is missing...sumting hurt her...hurt her deeply...then she found out that she already like him...she didnt tell anyone but her only best fren...
one afternoon....after skul...the girl n the guy were onlining in msn...so the girl find the guy chat...coz she knew that he doesn't find anyone chat...so...she wanna noe that the guy like her anot?? she then started 'hi' as a topic...then they both chat...she ask him wat kind of girl she like...he answered depends...so the girl ask him a question again...she asked him...if got ppl like u will u accpet?? he again answered depend...the girl again ask another question...she asked him that if the person is her will he accpet...his answer was sorry i dunwanna couple now...then the girl quickly said...no no no i was juz joking...n he said:"u were juz joking??" n she replied him...:"er...if is not?" he was to blur to understand everything...so they both stoped the conversation...few weeks later...the girl again ask the same question...but she feel the replied from him is very mad...so she got angry n never replied bak to him...but then...she never get the happiness again like the last time...her heart was all broken...1 piece 1 piece...is very hard to put it bak...
he told her that he dun wanna couple...but end up...he is coupleing wif another girl...1 month ago when she knew that he were coupleing......she was so mad n wanted to kill him...of that was juz saying...she wanna bang him on the next day...but she doesn't hav a chance......
the girl dunno wat to do after that...so she began to think of an idea to 4get about him...n she kept on thinking.......

WELL!! that's the end of the story...i will continue it the next time....
P.s.~girls dun ever like a guy...but wait 4 the guy to like u...

happy b'day to me~

this is the day to celebrate the day i born...
dunno y no wan celebrate wif me...
mostly ppl only wish me...
worst thing is that u make me angry
n i cried in the car
the 1st time i cry bcoz of
everytime i wan to cry but cant cry out
dunno y
but now
i finally sad till cry out
haha....

this year i only got 2 present...
hu will giv me present leh??
i hope the present is money...
then i can go shopping lu...
haha

ps:
i try to wait 4 u...
wait till u totally 4get her...

i want to~

i noe i nid to do wat le...
even though i scared but i must try le!
everybody wish me luck o~
haha

sorry to u~

so sorry i let her join us...
i should't let her follow us...
eiter i b4 say no that she can follow us or when she away 4 that awhile we juz go only n 4get about her...
now i really regret that...
juz now when she cum liao i never get to talk to liao...
coz she is talking to me...
u walk pass by me...
n walk faster n faster...
i walk bhind u...
looking at yr back...
slowly feature n feature
that momment the distant of us has gone...
i was really regret about it...
hope jesus giv me another chance to let me talk to u from class room till out side there~
b4 we go back
i saw u only 1 person doing home work in class
like u never finish like that
i dunno is u perpestly wait 4 me or really wan to finish the home work n leave those book in skul...
i really wanna ask u...
but when i wan to ask u...u say u be rite bak...
but when i check y u so long never reply
n that momment i only noe u off9 already...dunno how long ago
if she never follow us...do u think i get to ask u the thing i wan??

n also my fren crazy de lo...
say so loud o...
u wan the whole world to noe meh...
y say so loud???
u noe there got sum few ppl de mouth cannot shut wan la...
y u tell~~~~

PS:

hu u scloding??

me feel like crying bcuz of u...

but i really cant cry...

i dunno y...

can u tell me y...

i only wan yr answer~

u NeVEr CAmE~

u never came today
b4 himpunan i cant c u...
then when go up to class,i cant c u
i tought u went sum where
but in rehat time
im very sure that u never cum to skul
u never tell me y...
nor neither sum1 else~
wat had happened to u??
i want to ask u in msn but u never on9...
so how can i ask u??
i dun dare to sms u...
coz scared disturb u...
u never cum is not the problem
problem is...
in the same day u n her never cum...
wat happen ah??
really wanna noe...
hope u cum tomoro~
so that i can ask u!

4giv me~

pls 4giv me my fren...
from the day u ask me go to work...
n 2 days later
u sms me that...
i dun wan say le...
juz wanna say...
pls 4giv me that mayb opening skul i wont talk to u...
SORRY~

those hu noe this person is hu...pls help me tell her...
thx alot...n
nite nite~