so jeolus

me so jeolus at her de lo...
wat she hav i dun hav de lo
n wat i hav she alredy hav lo...
haiz...
dam jeolus de
but i think
got 1 thing
she dun hav de
hehehe
that is
a secret
hahaha
only i noe de
no wan noe
hehehe
im very proud of the secret i hav
hahaha
i juz noe
no 1 wanna b fren wif me
they always ask me go skul
but
they also no find me chat
haiz...
like her ah
she always talk to her
in the morning
in rehat
n even at home
she find me u noe bcoz of wat
is bcoz in class no wan teman her
juz bcoz like that so she make me go skul...
if not i alredy stay at home n sleep lo...

n the fren im jeolus of ah
she got too much fren
n her mom let her go out de
n almost every week also got out once
all her fren ask her out de
take so many picture
she let me c juz now...
im so dam jeolus de
hehehe
izzit bcoz im ugly she's pretty???
or bcoz im fat n she's skinny???
which wan leh???
i think i nid to do sumthing wif it liao....
giv me 1 or 2 month time
by next year
im surely
no wan will 'rec co nice' me de
hehehe
hope i really did it
hehehe


thats all for now
thx for wiewing
n
good nite
everyone!!

hate my life

y my parent

nid to do that to me???

bcuz i really did wrong

or juz

yr mood is down

i really dunno y

like juz now

they hurt me again

i cried at the restorant

u noe y???

haiz...

too long to explain

only 2 ppl noe y

n i lazy to wirte again

juz now

my life is getting worse

i hate them i hate myself i hate the world

i also hate my life

i hate................

IF...isnt it gud??

dunno y

he is very very good to me

sumtime make me laugh

sumtime make ma angry

even

sumtime make me hate him

but y

i noe he dun like me

i also dun like him

i like him as a fren only

but

does he like me as a fren

or

he actually hate me

juz dunwan tell me

which wan leh?

i dun dare ask leh

i scared i get hurt

but i also dun wan let ppl noe

haiz...

how leh

should i ask???

how to ask??

y cant i b a very brave person

if bcum brave liao ah

i can ask alot of thing de

always shy no used de...

haiz...

wanted to ask him go c my blog

but dunno he wan anot also

u noe la guys mah

guys normally dun c blogs wan mah

rite???

haha

dunno la

juz now ask him

his reply

owh ok ok xd

im like

wat the

haiz...

very wat wan lo

hahah

IF

i like him

he like me

both of us r gf bf

isnt it good

haha

jk jk

dunno hu can be the guy i like also

hahahaha

i think

to him

we still be frens better

best fren

best best fren

hahaha

but will he mind???

haiz...

so fun

but if can be best fren

isnt it good???

so sad

y god???

y u so bad to me???

make me sick so many time liao

i think got about 3 to 4 time a year ah

haiz....

so sien la being sick

must i sick all the time

so tired la

can sum1 tell him im sick

c wat is his respond???

juz want him to care about me abit

but

me myself finally noe

im actually not in love

juz fren love only...

i think is bcoz me wanna paktou gua

thats y tell myself i in love wif him

but now i found out

im not

so pls

can we b fren bak

i really mis the frenship we hav

sum1 say when u r sick u will b thinking of him

but i sick so many time

cant think of any1

y leh???

mayb really not in love

juz missing frenship only

after PMR can he go out wif him

juz wanna go out like normal fren

take sum picture like normal fren

but will he accpet it going out wif me???

SO SAD!!!!

haiz...

wat to say???

erm...

sorry long time no update

so now i update ah...

let c

this week ah

wat thing happen leh

monday...

i no go skul

tuesday...i got go...

erm...

let c wat happen

ah!!!!

got ceramah that day

sien dao

then

mah skul time again lo...

haiz....

that day ah...

i feel that

he like fell me very fan le...

dunno i think to much or wat...

but really he never talk to me if i never talk to him...

should i talk him or wat???

but really scared he say me fan ah...

haiz....

then wednesday

i no go skul again

haha

coz my fren she 5 30 in the morning sms me say

"sorry ah...my dad car broke down so i think i no go skul...n bla bla bla "

de....

omg

that momment

i dunno wat to do

i juz pretent i head pain

i go ask my mom

my mom really let me no go

thx you...hehehe

so stay at home study

n then afternoon got classes...

then today lo

got go skul

got ceramah very sien lo...

me go sit there

they talk untill make me wanna sleep

haiz....

i hav no choice

i say i wanna go toilet

then my fren say she wanna follow

ok lo...

go toilet lo...

end up we go class 1st drink sum water

then go toilet

then meet another fren n then togther ponteng

haiz...

untill almost the last period

the ceramah only finish

YEA!!!!

last period

is english

me talk alot to teacher

hahaha

together wif 2 boys

coz other dun really like talking to teacher...

hehehehe

oh ya...

today also...dunno to many ppl no cum or wat...

he very les talk to me at all..

or should i say

he never talk to me at all...

only i open my mouth n talk he only reply

if not...

herrrrrrr

dun care me also...

got once

i look at him...then he look back

then i faster turn to other side....

u noe y i scared of...

scared off he put electric

haha

jk...

so 2nd time i look at him

he got look back at me...

but

suddently sum1 head block liao

so no nid c

hahaha

stupid leh

hahaha

so now my heart also fan lo...

haiz...

got 1 question ah...

really nid to ask her...

the time i meet her

i surely ask le

i cant wait anymore

i'll tell u wat she give me the answer

k??

hahaha

c got mood tell u anot lo...

hahaha

time is going to fast

is midnight already

he never on9 yet

really dunno im in love anot ah

when he hurt you...u will cry or angry???

most of my fren they say is cry 4 him

but me diffrent

hehe

me is angry de

haiz...

n when he cum near u

u sure will get nervous rite

me not wor

feel like ntg happen also

haiz....

really nid to ask her that question ah....

yes!!!!!

going to meet her soon

hehe

ok tats all 4 now...

GOOD NITE

EVERYONE

GOOD NITE

mis him

this 3 days...

i no go skul

stay at home n study study study...

in this 3 days...

i only think of my story....

how to complete it....

never even use 1 min

to think about them......

y leh???

is this bcoz im not in love???

or juz bzy wif home work?????

hu can giv me an answer leh???

i think only me

myself can giv the answer

only me....

haiz....

now watching a show...

make me cry le...

dunno y real life i cant cry...

only watch show will cry....

so...

do i hav to watch tv only can cry....

cant it cry more "zi ran"???

y i like that de ??

i think i better giv up

single is better

then only 1 ppl in love rite???

should be 2 ppl de....

not 1.....

pmr cumming....

should i be more in study or more in thinking????

or should it be half study half thinking....

i really cant figure la....

sumone help me pls...

i beg u!!!!!!

wat a surprise!!!

wat a surprice i did my revision this morning

coz i though i wont do my revision at home

even thought i didnt went to skul

but it happen

i did my revision

1stly

i on the computer

then i on the music

then i start to do the home work

is not home work actually

is a revisin book i brought my self

im a good girl or wat???

hahaha

then tuition time

i didt went 4 tuition

but i did went to my fren house

i brought my computer also

when i went there it cannot connect wan

i was so smart i go figure how to connect

end up i figure it how to connect

so clever la me

hahaha

so perasan

hehehe....

the thing i plan to do

i must do it...

be single is much more better

then juz only 1 person in love

but not 2 person in love

b'day

wow

sum1 b'day again o

last sunday only my cousin twin's b'day

n today my cousin bro b'day

wow wow wow

so geng

next week dunno hu b'day leh...

hahaha

really cant think now...

wish all of them n also to hu that their b'day is cumming soon,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY N DREAMS CUM TURE

hahaha

n then this morning i never go class

coz i dunno where the beg is

so no go lo

then my mom called my fether ask him wat time go grandma house

then he say almost go liao

then my mom wait 4 us we want go also

so go bak that time

my mom let me drive again

yesterday is wira

today

AVANZA

so cool men...

dunno when can drive again leh...

hope that time is only me n my frens in the car

hahaha

so evil la...

oh ya...

almost finish the chapter 4 story...

going to update the story in that blog liao...

i actually can write finish liao

but my fren say tooooo short wor...

so now making longer

hope u all can wait

the links is

http://evil-love-story.blogspot.com/

hope u all love it...

drive ooo

this morning i went to class around 9 till 10 sumting

but my mom cum n pick me about 10 45 like that

so late

then went we cum bak that time

surely got pass "sirim" wan

so

pass by the "sirim" that time

my mom suddently tell me

want to drive anot??

then i say

of coz...hahaha....u where will giv de...

i really tought she joking

but not

she say

u dunwan ah???im not joking leh...

i was toooooo surprice

then i say i wan of coz....

then i get down the car n she as well

then she teacher me drive

wah...

so cool

from there drive back to home

dam fun leh...

i tought very hard

but actually is easy...

but me still nid control my break

hahaha

i think real driving is easier then "ar kit" de driving

hahahahaha

so fun la

wish can drive again...hehehehe....

i

cant

wait

ah

my fren...n bout...sum1

today

my fren very sad bout her n her lover

but i cant help her wif anything

coz i never had fall in love or date b4

so i cannot noe how she feel

only 1 word i noe 4 her

is

SAD!!!

she like very sad 4 about 3 to 4 days...

n the reson is she cant talk to her lover

wt...

i ask her la...

no nid feel sad de la got chance de

but she still very sad

then when is my turn

tell her anyting about my sadness

she like no care only

juz only noe how sad her own thing

even she cant help but can try de mah rite???

but she is not lo...

haiz...

wat a fren

already 30+ days

he never even reply me 1 massage

coz i dun dare to chat wif him anymore coz...

long long time no chat no sms

should i trust my fren

she told me

"u should juz sms or chat wif him..."

i like

im not u mah...i noe u dare...but me diffrent

haiz...

shold i blif her

but will he reply me??

or dun even wan choi me...

how leh

how leh???

so fan ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

stomach pain...isn't me

today stomach pain de ppl is not me...is my fren

i saw him pain dao really cant tahan...

pain dao swt too much...

but i really cant do anything 4 him

y i so no use de...

like another fren she told me sumthing about love de ah...

i

really cant help her wif anything

i dunno how to make her or him laugh

or how to figure thier problem

very sorry my fren

so sorry

hope u all dont mind

wtf...

yesterday!!!

the teacher stupid wan...

suddently change sum student from our class to other class...

haiz...

fine...

our class 8 student change to other class

n then another 7 student change in to our class...

wat the...

then my fren count liao...

she told me

whole class only got

16 chiness

3 indian

n others

is malays...

wah....

so many malays..

so stink...

haiz...

then in the 7 change student there

got 2 is chiness

1 is boy 1 is girl...

i really dun like that GIRL loh...

i nvr show out la...

wat SHE ask me i juz answer lo...

hehe

n today ah...

i very not song HER lo

HER fren which is in my class wan ah...

say stomach pain then go home liao

sit bside me de fren also stomach pain

also go home liao...

but both of them ah

very diffrent de...

1 pain dao go home time still laughing

1 leh pain dao swt too much

wah

so big diffrent ah!!!

haiz...

hahaha

ok back to the story

went HER fren went back liao SHE very sien ntg to do

so i lent my fren to HER

hahaha

then bi that time

finish homework liao then i go chat wif teacher 4 awhile lo...

the i b frenly wif them mah

i go to my fren place there where she sit bside HER

i saw them chat so fun so i go there ask them

"wah...chat so fun ah??wat u all chating about??"

then

SHE juz answer me this

"NTG LA

i not song HER liao

i juz say i go pack bag 1st

then after skul that time

SHE like very fren wif my fren n ask her

...(hu hu hu de) u go wif hu??

the my fren say her la(my fren point at me)

haiz...

very scard my fren is not my fren anymore

n no1 want to b my fren anymore ah...

very scard ah!!!

haiz...

how leh???

how leh???

feel lik crying but cant cry out!!!

even to HIM!!!

how he do to me

i feel very heart broken

feel like crying

but cant cry out

haiz...

the guy u noe

pls dun tell out,my fren

PLS

I BEG U

my secret!!!

today...my fren telling me her secret is about her n her lover

wow

dunno y suddently

say till me here...

say me

hu u like de actually

say la say la...

im like

y must say me like hu leh???

dunwan say cannot meh...

me always feel like tell liao ah...

surely the whole skul will noe de...

or

i surely dun dare look at the guy liao...

n today...

she noe liao...

dunno y i tell her....

haiz.....