to be a best friend the most important thing is what??just talk?? just play?? just have fun?? just cheat?? i always know best friend wont really exists in this world...they call us as best friend coz they need one only...they think telling everything to us is call best friend...they think they have fun the most "with" is call best friend...they though we know them well....so they don't think how u feel....they say they know u well...do they?? or they just say only??if a best friend know us well...they should understand the "why" inside of our heart...but unfortunately...they don't...not even abit...
this few days...i get alot of different answer...some say i very small gas...do i?? some say i very loud...some even say im ugly...some too say im fat...well...to say the truth...the example they told me of me being small gas person is a girl who i hate the most...that i get angry at her for nothing....im like what is this?? like this also counted??they too dont like her...but why only im the one whom people say im small gas??i had think b4...some time when they make me angry n i run out the class room or sit there n dont talk...really doesnt mean im angry...i just only one a CARE from friend...or should i say a ME in their eyes...coz i know if i dont angry or doesnt talk...they wont wanna talk to me...or mayb then i'll become an invisible person....unfortunately....it also happen when im loud or i talk....
i have no idea why they like everyone of the class except me??is it bcoz im ugly?? is it because im fat?? is it because i have no topic to say?? or it is because im not too pretty enough??or is it becoz im irritating??thats y evryone hate me??
they always say i emo at school or always feel down in school...but they dont get to understand why i feel that way...they never think of what they did...they just think of what i did...mayb the god wants me to be independent that's y not willing to give me a friend where care me more....i just want a guy friend who know me well...he know what i think...he know when is my mood...he know what i like...well so far...none of a guy i know is like that....
i think from now on i should put a mask on...so that i can just ignore them...till after spm...n never keep in touch with them if i can...n also from now on...i hope i can do it lo...dont ever tell my things to anyone...just write it in a book...well diary is the best friend...who will just listen n doesnt tell anyone...n after spm...i will put myself into a music world...where cant c anyone...coz im tired of being invisible n is my turn to put them into invisible status~~
